On Grief and Seared Ahi Tuna with Black Rice
Those we love and lose are always connected by heartstrings into infinity.
— Terri Guillemets
I immediately began researching flights out to see her on the opposite coast, and we flew out to be by her side the next evening. It was a difficult time for us, but also spiritually enriching. We watched as neighbors and friends poured in to offer support, to help with the hurry of planning a funeral that no one could have expected. They were there to simply offer their presence. To see the outpouring of love from people was incredible.
As it turns out, this was the first time I was meeting my future in-laws in person. Certainly not ideal, but proof that life is full of surprises.
I cannot speak for the grief of my fiancé or my mother-in-law. Grief is an intensely personal experience, but it certainly brought flooding in memories of my father’s passing. My fiancé and I sat in his parents’ kitchen one evening and talked until we found ourselves in the dark, too occupied with conversation to consider turning on the light. It was then that I recalled with clarity how surreal these moments were for my mother and me.
My personal beliefs in the afterlife are, what I like to call, squishy. I haven’t given it much thought, relegating that which is supernatural as being too complicated for humans to ponder with any certainty. Rather, I believe firmly in the afterlife that is certain: our legacy. My fiancé’s father leaves behind a legacy of being a good man. A man who took care of his family and friends alike.
If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them.
— James O’ Barr
As a result of this event, I have not felt up to writing, cooking, or much more than simply appreciating the company of my fiancé. To comfort him, I decided to make one of his favorite dishes: Seared Marinated Ahi Tuna served with “forbidden” black rice.
“Forbidden Rice” is a name for black rice that, as legend has it, was once reserved for the Emperor in ancient China. Black rice is high in nutrients–more so than even brown rice–including 8.5 protein, 3.5 iron, 4.9 fiber, and the highest amount of antioxidants of any rice variety. It also has a striking aesthetic, making for a beautiful accompaniment.
Seared Ahi Tuna with Black Rice
I served this with white asparagus. As a side note, Almost Kosher is going healthy (as a promise to my future mother-in-law). Look forward to more salads and vegetable dishes, as well as an improved recipe format in my coming posts.